Monday, October 30
new layout
i got new layout loh.and i wanted to scare you with my ic photo.
boo. happy halloween.
Posted by uberbeloved at 9:23:00 PM
Sunday, October 22
my life so far
have been feeling down for the past two days probaby due to the lack of sleep. doesn't help when i have to travel one hour to boon lay for a 15 minute presentation and then travel all the way back again. (totally understand how ting and chiam and ash must have felt back in tp. kudos.)have been doing some thinking and for a brief moment yesterday, i indulged in self-pity. self-pity is probably the worst thing to indulge in, apart from haagen daaz's cookies and cream.
anyway i was reflecting on the sad fact of how i have wasted my time on unworthy matters and people. all my life, i have been conscious of family and friends who would give anything to be there to share my joys and sadness. however, i have failed to reciprocate, spending my time and effort instead in people that i had hoped would be there for me.
these feelings were sparked off on friday after a brief meetup with jin. i proposed a certain policy to him that i believed would benefit his brother. he later messaged me something in the essence of he trusted me and that he believed whatever policy that he got from me would prosper. i cannot describe how those words blessed and touched my heart. a stark difference from my so-called 'sister' who went, 'don't ask me to buy any policy from you hor', when all i did was mention the fact that i've joined AIA to her.
i'm not implying that if you are my friend, you ought to buy a policy to 'support' me. with all due respect, i do not need any 'i-buy-cos-i'm-your-friend' kind of support. i'd much rather eat grass. the only kind of support i need is one of belief and trust. believe that i joined this trade because of a genuine passion. trust that as your friend, i would want to help you in any way i can and not simply cos i want to earn your money. seriously, if you see me as unscrupulous, as a friend i'd advise you to leave me and run as far away from me as possible.
believe in me! hah. anyway the support issue is just one of many factors that has caused me to rethink about the loved ones around me. i'd like to take this time and space to apologise and thank those who have stuck around me though i haven't been very much there for you. much thanks for blessing and loving me. much thanks for taking time out to encourage me through messages. much thanks to suggest meeting up for coffee although i know of your busy schedules. much thanks to those who send their love via msn and parcels, though you girls are miles away from me. much thanks for showing faith in me as a friend.
above all, much thanks for showing me that besides Daddy, you guys are around to love and care for me. after all, i am the UBERBELOVED mah. HAH.
anyway my prayer for myself today, is to be able to love you guys above and beyond what i am able to do. not by my own effort, but by His grace. so be prepared to be blown away by His love for you through me!
and oh fluffy wants to say hi.
Posted by uberbeloved at 1:40:00 PM
Thursday, October 19
just another thursday
am suppose to be doing up my presentation but it is seriously boring the hell, earth and heaven out of me. i understand the need to do presentations so as to be accustomed to future presentations during meetings and all, BUT is there a need to present so many bloody times? unlike the other idiots in Not That Useful, i don't think i require so many presentations to teach me how to stand in front of a crowd and talk sense. even Bindi Irwin at a mere age of 8 is able to captivate her audience of 5000. and i. don't. believe. she. went. to. a. university. to. learn. how. to. do. that.GOODNESS PRESENTATIONS ARE REALLY GETTING TO ME!
alright on a happier note, i came home last thursday greeted by a huge mysterious parcel on my table.
after checking if it ticks and tocks, i carefully opened the mysterious parcel. and lo and behold! so many candies and ice age goodies! i felt as if i'm 5 all over again. heh.
ohh but i realised that i have to share half of my loot with jin. =
it was indeed a pleasant surprise from my dear ladies from down under. hugs and kisses to JAS and TING! we will have a blast when you girls are back yeah. hah. just stop spamming my tagboard. =p
on a more recent happier note, yesterday whilst having lunch with jin, i suddenly decided to buy 4d. hah. i don't buy 4d religiously for every draw. but since we were in tampines with no place to go, we walked to the 4d shop near our place and i placed a $2 bet. hah.
after which, we met again for prata supper with wiwi and ru and yongjie. no photos cos the place not very glam lah. and i can only be seen in rich and famous places. hah. anyway we decided to make a trip to bangkok during december. though its only bangkok, but am quite excited cos it is my first trip overseas with ru. hah. i just know we will have a blast. (i suddenly feel very nostalgic. miss the uberdupers and the whole bangkok trip. DUO MEI LI DE MEI GUI HUA! haha. only you guys laughed at that joke of mine leh.)
anyway we left prata place at about one. reached home about one thirty only to receive an sms from jin telling me that i struck 4d! hah. click on the picture if you want to see how much i won.
heh. am i blessed or what. anyway this post is pretty messy cos there are too many happy notes lah. anyway back to my presentation. GRRR. will be back. soon. i think.
sidenote: for self-righteous ones who feel your blood pressure rising when i mentioned that i'm blessed to be able to strike 4d. i'm not going to explain myself much (i didn't buy the 4d ticket hoping to strike rich) here but i suggest you don't ever come back to this blog cos the subsequent blessings will be too much for you to take.
Deuteronomy 8:18
"And you shall remember the LORD your God, for it is He who gives you POWER to get WEALTH, that He may establish His covenant which He swore to your fathers, as it is this day."
Posted by uberbeloved at 1:17:00 PM
Wednesday, October 4
Starlight Cinema
ya ya ya i haven't been blogging for eons. but no reason for you to have constipation right? hah. okie no link. anyway there's no explanation for my hiatus, just didn't feel like blogging loh. hah. well the past months have been challenging and enriching to say the least. i've been seeing new revelations and feeling His amazing love for me more than ever. everyday i'm so blessed that i just want to go somewhere and preach to a huge crowd. not to ask them to call me God lah, but to show them how much God loves us.have been talking to some close friends bout the grace of God and how we have been so blessed by His love for us. maybe i shall give some examples of His blessings in my life. i'm aware at how others may see it as a 'you're-thinking-too-much' kind of coincidences, but i seek to testify for His glory and His glory alone. heh. anyway last week was my one week break from school, not that i needed it since i'm never in school, but it was still a nice official off from Not-That-Useful. however, i was utterly bored by wednesday cos nobody is around in the day for me to spend time with. besides fluffy. so i was so bored i felt ready to just sprint towards a wall in my house and bang my head against it in order to lapse into a coma, just so that time would pass faster. i've mentioned before that I HATE PASSING TIME. i can pass notes, pass gas and pass away happily anytime so long as i don't have to PASS TIME.
i remember complaining to wiwi about being bored which is quite rare cos i know that there is nothing he can do to alleviate the pain of boredom except to listen since he's stuck in a 'trash can'. anyway the point is i'm so blessed that He notices little details like this and blesses me by giving wiwi the rest of the day off out of the blue so that he can leave the 'trash can' and rescue me from my boredom!
i understand that the 'trash can' gives occasional offs once in a while. but i believe that He arranged it for us cos we were blessed by jin with tickets to attend the starlight cinema, that we wouldn't be able to make it if not for the off. besides i was bored, do you think my dear Daddy in heaven bear to see me bored? apparently not lah. hah.
anyway this was just one small snippet of my everyday blessings. am abit lazy to type more cos i'm lazy loh. call me if you want to know more and i promise to share. heh.
Psalms 103:2-5
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget not all His benefits:
Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,
Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
yeap i'm michelle, the child that Jesus loves MOST.
Posted by uberbeloved at 9:28:00 PM
have i told you lately that i love you?
I ran into a stranger as he passed by'Oh excuse me, please' was my reply
He said, 'please excuse me too, I wasn't watching for you'
We were very polite, this stranger and I
We went on our way and we said goodbye
But at home a different story is told
How we treat our loved ones, young and old
Later that day, cooking the evening meal
My son stood beside me very still
When I turned I nearly knocked him down
'Move out of the way!' I said with a frown
He walked away his little heart broken
I didnt realise how harshly I had spoken
While I lay awake in bed
God's still small voice came to me and said,
'While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you used
But the family you love, you seem to abuse
Go and look on the kitchen floor
You'll find some flowers there by the door
Those are the flowers he brought for you
He picked them himself; pink, yellow and blue
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise
You never saw the tears that filled his little eyes'
By this time I felt very small
And now my tears began to fall
I quietly went and knelt by his bed
'Wake up little one, wake up' I said
'Are these the flowers you picked for me?'
He smiled, 'I found them out by the tree
I picked them because they are pretty like you
I know you'll like them, especially the blue'
I said, 'Son I'm very sorry for the way I acted today
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way'
He said, 'Oh mum that's okie, I love you anyway'
i know its gonna be cliché if i'm gonna say stuff like 'its easy to forget those who matters most to us' and such but IT IS TRUE! hah. go ahead, tell your family you love them and give them hugs and kisses. just don't say its my idea.
