Wednesday, November 29
neither do i condemn you
her name was lena. all through her life, lena sought for love. love she never knew and never felt. her parents were absent from her life for as long as she could recall and her peers never saw her worthy enough to be their friends. daily she wept into her pillow alone but smiled while she was in a crowd. a forced and unnatural smile ...she soon grew up looking for love and accepting them in all the wrong places. she received hugs and kisses and gave them lavishly to men who could see nothing in her except for the fact as to how she is going to satisfy them later in bed. she got married but she could not care less about him. she spent nights at pubs, drinking to stifle her tears and drown her sorrows. after each night of wild partying, lena would return to her tear-stained pillow and feel the void in her grow bigger and bigger ...
his name was chris. chris was intelligent, rich and he was constantly surrounded by friends who loved and supported him through all his decisions. except that particular one of which they threatened to disregard him as a friend if he goes ahead with it. the decision to marry lena, the decision to be by her side because he truly loved her so.
it hurts him to see her return home drunk and dishevelled. it hurts him to know that she does not know the depths of his love towards her. it hurts him to see her suffer like that. it hurts him ...
tonight was no different from any other. lena was laughing at the joke of this man she had just met. he was charismatic and had many funny stories to share and she enjoyed being with him. as the night progressed, lena felt the ceiling spin and the throbbing music grew louder and louder ...
unconscious and fiercely being undressed, lena could barely make out the blurred image of the man who had made her laugh earlier on. she raised her hand in a feeble attempt to stop him, but it remained a feeble attempt. she felt his breath against her neck and how she wished she could die right there and then. just then, a door flung open and she heard loud protests and cries just before she passed out ...
"chris, you caught her cheating on you, do you believe us now?" "what are you going to do about this?" "she was caught in the very act of it, i think you should get a divorce!"
such were the murmurings of his friends. they wanted the best for him and took it upon their hands to show him what lena was up to. they had followed her to the hotel room and notified him just so that he would be able to see for himself what a slut of a wife he has married ...
"no one is allowed to condemn her except for me, for she is my wife. but, neither do i condemn her, because i love her."
"... but neither do i condemn her, because i love her." lena wept. not because of her loneliness now, but because she realised that the love that she has been looking for has been there along, accepting her for who she is. this unconditional love. this agape love.
Adapted from the Bible
A True Life Account - An Adultress Faces the Light of the World
John 8:1-12
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He has loved us unconditionally even before we knew Him.
He died for us when we rejected Him.
He was pierced and wounded for us, though He did no wrong.
He suffered our shame so that we may come boldly into His presence.
He cried, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" so that we may now call God our Abba Father and that He will never forsake us.
He came that we might have life and have it more abundantly.
He laid down His life so that mine would be risen up.
He is my CHRISt. He loved me so much that He would rather die than live eternity without me.
(cues music)
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wreck (Lena)
Like me
I once was lost, but now am found
Was blind but now i see
ahhhhhhh! how not to be uberbeloved? ahhhhhhhhhh! so blessed, so loved! i trust that you have been blessed!
Posted by uberbeloved at 2:23:00 PM
Friday, November 24
time for a haircut
in view of the festivities ahead, my family decided that fluffy needs to undergo a drastic makeover. so with fluffy in arm, my mum marched him to the place he abhors most. to the groomer. hah.
heh i think fluffy hates his new hairstyle.
which according to wiwi makes fluffy look like a pitiful stray. hah.
oh incidentally the brand of fluffy's stray box is that of the contact lenses solution that was being recalled yesterday due to contamination. nothing important, just to bring to your attention that i read the newspapers. hah.
Posted by uberbeloved at 10:23:00 AM
Friday, November 17
fluffy the grouch
wanted to post about my blessed batam trip, BUT, my dearest fluffy had other ideas on what i can blog on, especially the fact that he would like to be a star in sesame street. not sure what i am talking about? read on.it started early this morning. rejuvenated after a shower, i was determined to blog then start studying. HOWEVER, i walked into my room to discover this. the culprit looking on at his masterpiece.
notice the blue blue stuff on the floor? that is the fillet o fish wrapper. hah. then the wang wang wrappers? those are my late night snacks. heh. and the silly fellow still dare to sit in the midst of the mess and look up at me.
i then picked up all the mess and put them back where they belong. fluffy inclusive.
which is when i realised he looks like a certain character from sesame street. my favourite character. haha.
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TADAH! look alike hor.
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Posted by uberbeloved at 11:40:00 AM
Thursday, November 2
back to normal
okie now my layout is working perfectly well. after i sacrificed my longest post ever. had to delete the ikea photos post just to remove all the flying pictures. sigh.just bought a new book from mph. the picture of dorian gray by oscar wilde. don't know what the story is about but was intrigued by the title cos james blunt mentioned about dorian gray in one of my favourite song, tears and rain. so just buy for fun loh. feels good to act intellectual and buy literature material instead of archie comics. heh.
anyway the point is, i have a new book. =)
"Tears and Rain" -- James Blunt
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
